Do not try to change me as a woman I am what I am


Do not try to change me I am just a woman
I am individualistic, I am egoist, I am arrogant,
I am uncompromising, I am unforgiving, I am rudely honest,
 I am unforgiving, I am "unadjusting".....but I am what I am..
You can not simply sit beside me and peel off with your criticism,
 you can not say you like me and then start trying to impose your desired changes.

I do not want you to praise my dreams and cover me in  your shadows
I do not want you to shelter me and imprison within your imaginary rules and limits
I have my own horizons to cross and reach beyond
Do not try to tell me what 'should' I be because I am what I am.

I am not an illiterate exploitable homo sapiens of yesteryear
who was subjected to medical experiment in Ethiopia, Niger and Cameroon.
I am no more the woman who suffered in Nile and ancient Rome
for you chastised not giving you your desired pleasures..
Stay away, I am a truth that exists beyond all definitions

Do not modify me because I am as pure as the sky, as oriental as easterlies
Let me be what I am without inducing your cynicism..
Because despite all your remodeling veils, I will remain what I am..

Comments

virendra said…
You are God's spirit everywhere;
You are stronger than the ages.-khg
...............adbhut!!!!!
February 17, 2012 at 2:06 AM
Anonymous said…
I still walk on the same walking track.... I still sit on the same bench… still buy the same coffee… still wash my eyes with dew drops…

People talk around me that he cries, he regrets and he yells, he wants me back..!!

I know.. I know.. I know..

It soothes my heart & I smile.... Its only ME who knows that when he sees me, he recognizes what he HAD, regrets.... that he lost me & realizes he'll never get me back...

You know what..!?? these tears are actually the shouting words that he can’t utter... His red eyes portray his bleeding heart...
He cries that he lost me… but I have no regrets, no tears to shed… I couldn’t lose him coz he was Never mine..

My heart is now Locked… He took me as an option in his life... I left him with no Choice...!!!I have no space for him…. I have my own life…my own interests… my own reasons to smile… I keep myself busy with the things I have to do… I smile.. I laugh… I don’t wanna pause for a second… I know this static second will take my life away…

But still, in cold winter nights… when no one is around me….I hear my own heartbeats....I feel the silence...I close my eyes and still think of him… I cry and I shout "Who needs him”.."??? my heart always weeps and whispers slowly.."You do.. Stupid...."
&
in such nights... I pray thousand times for the time to fly and for the morning to come & wipe my tears...
I wanna smile again...;)
February 17, 2012 at 9:18 AM
Anonymous said…
“This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And dear, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up becuase if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.”
― Marilyn Monroe
February 20, 2012 at 5:46 AM
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